Ash Ramsunder’s Good Vibrations Blog – Oh, Happy Day!
Oh, Happy Day!
It’s July 3rd as I type this in sheer celebration and complete joy! No, it is not my birthday. Neither is it our wedding anniversary. And apart from a few crisp apples and tangy clementines that sharply reset my taste buds, I certainly haven’t purchased anything new today…
It’s July 3rd and I feel like shouting aloud from my rooftop (which needs a new fresh coat of paint by the way). No, I don’t have the winning lottery ticket. No, the bathroom scale has not been friendly to me today. And no, an online delivery has not arrived today instead of next week Tuesday, as scheduled.
But it is July 3rd and my soul dances within me.
Here is my reason why today is such a beautiful and significant day for me. Had I taken matters into my own hands – and been allowed to get away with it – today, Saturday, 3 July 2021, would have been the fifth year anniversary of my death…
In a previous article, I discussed how a deeply profound spiritual experience with a Master saved me from going through with my intentions of ending my life. I described how in a moment of utter despair, sheer gloom and earnest seeking, I reached out to God only to have Him reach back to me. Through that initial (and then subsequent) encounters with my Master – His Messenger, my guide – I have received greater spiritual insight in both depth and intensity. And ever since that fateful day where Divine destiny and holy providence intersected with my own frail and feeble human will, the process of inner initiation began and changed my experience of not only life, but of living as well.
With time and further inner development, God was not just the Father who provided, SHE was also the benevolent who loved and comforted. She was not just found in churches, mosques, temples and synagogues built by the hands of man, but HE could be visited upon tops of mountains, beside the trickling waters of a gentle stream or even through an afternoon stroll of our very own backyard gardens. I grew to understand that God was not a genie or a Santa Claus who I could manipulate through tantrums into granting my every silly wish, but that He/She was the Creator of the Universe concerned with my highest purpose.
I also grew to understand that the concept of “male” and “female” itself were merely components of Nature whereas Masculine and Feminine where polarities of the Universe. The former is that which is externally created; the latter is the Energy from which all of creation itself emerges.
I began looking at my Bible scriptures with deeper meaning and hidden insight and wondered how I could have missed the secret underlying message which lay in plain sight. And as the Master had promised me in my encounter with him mentioned in my first article, I truly began to have a Relationship and not just a religion.
But before all this could happen, I had to be completely broken and emptied out. There is a wonderful quote that goes, “God sends nobody away empty except those who are already filled with themselves.” And it was only through the “emptying out” of myself that God could reveal Himself in a completely new, contemporary and deeply personal way. No matter how beautiful a cup may be on the outside, it is only useful if it is empty on the inside… And over the years I have come to realise that emptying yourself of everything that is not of the highest good, allows for fresher wisdom, deeper insight and more wonderful revelations of greater secrets and hidden mysteries to be revealed to you in one way or the other. Jesus himself spoke about how you “cannot put new wine into old wineskins” (Mark 2:22). His was a powerful metaphor and the spiritual truth behind his message stands true to today and will continue to do so. If you unyieldingly hold on to the dogmatic, old, rigid teachings and ways of life, there can be no room for the “new” to enter.
So it is July 3rd and this is why I celebrate…
I would be dead and five years would have gone by today. Had I ended my life on that gloomy day in 2016 would those who sought to destroy me remember me on this day? Apart from my loved ones, would ANYBODY still have remembered me? Would anybody remember my good intentions or acts of kindness? Or would the only memory of me be a painful one? Would my only legacy be a transference of pain rather than a reminder of hope? I wince as I think about this…
As I sit here delighting in the warms rays of sunlight that dance on my skin and warm my body as well as my soul, I cannot help but be utterly grateful for having Spirit step in on that fateful day. Had I ended my life, I would never have encountered the magical moments and marvellous possibilities that Life would bring my way. Back then, I could never have known that unconditional love in the form of a completely unselfish and wonderful partner was on the cards for me – someone who would completely enhance and complement my journey through Life. I never would have known that this would eventually lead to a fruitful, beautiful and meaningful marriage. I would not have guessed that I would have the opportunity to choose which house, city (or even country) I wanted to spend the week or weekend in, depending on my mood and availability – as I was completely broke at that time. I never would have known that I could grow, evolve and become a better human being – one led by compassion rather than recognition. I never would have met the wonderful friends who would eventually become family. I never would have experienced how wonderfully life intricately connects and weaves the threads that run between us – including coming into contact with Jackie Dennison, a lady that I felt inexplicably drawn to after watching her (their) show on television approximately 15 years ago and now get to express my absolute adoration to her in real life too…
The point of my message is this: No matter how difficult, dark and bleak your life may seem at this moment, there are still far better days that lie ahead of you if you have the patience, courage and determination to withstand your storm. ALL storms eventually run out of rain… There is still magic in the world that is yet to be felt, seen and experienced. There are still beautiful places that await your footprints, picturesque sunrises that are waiting to paint the morning sky and stunning flowers whose petals you have yet to feel and whose fragrances you have yet to smell. There are still beautiful hearts that you have yet to touch and to have them touch yours as well. Beloved, you may think that your life is ending, but in reality, it has yet to begin! First go into yourself and do the soul work that needs to be done. Then throw the doors to your spirit wide open and invite in all of creation – every stone, every flower, every insect, and every person. Behind the smile of the saint, you will find your own joy. Behind the eyes of the sinner, you will see your own soul staring back at you. You will see yourself in everything and everybody… And then you will be led to the secrets of Life itself. Until then, do the best that you can today. Today is all that matters.
